Bi-polar x's Two

I know we all think that we all have a story to tell about our life, and I'm no exception. Throughout my life, I've had many manic attacks and bouts with dark depression. I attempted suicide many times in a various of ways. I died at least three times, and was brought back to life through electro shock and having my stomach pumped. I've been locked up quite a few times, mental prisons, they didn't think twice about beating you or putting you in a straight jacket,and sometimes beating you when you were in a straight jacket. I have a long criminal record that I'm not proud of. Many of the crimes happened being manic. Bi-polarism doesn't come with a get out of jail free card, just the opposite. I've had my skull cracked open trapped between a toilet and a wall, and left like that bleeding out for a couple of hours, two police officers just beat me.I really could go on about shaving the skin off my face exorcising the demon inside of me, and than running around town saying God is coming soon. My friends abandoned me, and I can't blame them. My father thought I was doing drugs, so he put me in a re-hab at 17 with heroin addicts that were much older, and it was razor walls, my manic soon went from a high to very suicidal and I was found hanging in the bathroom, no pulse, they actually called my parents to ask them, what to do with the body. I wound up in a hospital pissing blood for days. They put me back in he Re-Hab to finish my time. A guy yelled out is it true when you hang yourself that you piss and shit on yourself. I'm not to sure where I'm going with this, I'm looking for someone who can stand up and recognize I'm on SSI, AND I DON'T MAKE A HELL OF A LOT. Once I finish the tapes, I will mail them to whoever who wants to do battle for me, I'm 54 and I'm just skimming the surface. If no one wants to , than I guess its okay. .